Today, I finished my fifth semester of college. I have three remaining.
This semester has been the hardest three months of academia that I have ever experienced. I’ve failed more tests than I ever have in my life. Do you know how humbling that is? To feel as if you’re failing the things that you need to be learning in order to be a “qualified” minister of the Gospel?
It sucks. It’s knocked me down so much more than I could have ever imagined. I don’t know what God is trying to teach me in this humbling time. But it’s working. And making me question everything I know.
I think that seasons of questioning are necessary to healthy growth. I don’t know everything. I don’t know anything, which is what I have been learning consistently. And I feel so underqualified to even be a student. Am I even learning anything? What am I doing wrong???
I’m ready for this season to be over. Ready to stop feeling like a failure.